a melange of ponder and wonder

days all begin with sun-rise and sunset..they have the approximately the same time lenght..almost all creatures on earth perform their mundane chores, i wonder then what causes each day to be so different than the earlier.there are so many living creatures on the earth..multiply those creatures with their respective living age and multiply each ones' living age to 365...all these days: each and every day, each and every moment is so distinct..so varied..each minute proponent of time represents a different hue and a different shade of life..this 'life' is an composed of so many elements both internal and external. External elements represents the environment with agni, jal, vayu, prakash and internally there are so many rasas and emotions- anger, grief, dispair, happiness, joy, bliss, greed, satisfaction, frustration, agony..and then to operate all of them lies a life current which we call soul...
some times you sit back and wonder whether the atman was made to operate these factors or whether the karma of the atman intimidated the universe to accomplish these duties..stars, comets, sattlelites, meteroids- why do they exist?..and how come their nakshatras determine our future(to believe that they do or not is a personal opinion and it also depends upon the your own faith and your environmental circumstanes)..and in this entire cosmos- where are we? what is our significance..may be we are just a miniscule element of this cosmos..or may be the strenght of the entire cosmos lies in us but we like buffoons, our pseudo thoughts limits the zenith of the knowledge of our existence...
'existence'..this term is also so quirky.. how do you know whether you exist or not?one might say a death od a person is his absence or if the creature is not dead he is alive and so we prove existence..but the world of spirits?what about them? those instincts- what about them..one cannot prove their existence or their absence..
there are so many questions lying above us..so many of them below us..so many of them around us..and we are still ignorant and reticent..this contra attitude itself shows the depth of our true strenght of the spirit..
i havent done any thesis on physics, but i some how feel that there is a law behind this..the negativity of a person is also indicative of the positiveness a person can harness..and similarly, if a person is capable of doing immense good, he/she has the equal power of destruction..personas now depend upon the way they scale their attitude on the barometer of these extremes...sage valmiki before he wrote the great epic was a daku of a very ill repute..king ashoka captured an warred and enslaved a plethora of people, but it was the same man who after realizing his error bit his conscience and turned to principles of buddhism and closer to religion(in its real sense)..i have observed so many people with such same balance of powers..i think i can call it the 'equilibrium'(oh yes...this reminds me of market equilibrium and intersection of demand and supply forces)...so this an equilibrium of the two forces of positivity and negation..creation and destruction, war and peace...love and hatred..evil and goodness..all manifest in this equilibrium..But it must be noted here that great people(i dont mean celebrities here..but people who have strived hard for the welfare of other people, those who are legendary and almost hero worshipped) become great not by simply doing great things, but by commanding control over their other negative and destructive powers..by gaining a contol on their own senses..this makes their character deep, profound and the realm of life comes true in its own essence..it is such people who are close to getting nirvana or the bliss of enlightenment. to speak little but kind words that dont hurt any one..to be equally resilent in moments of highs and lows alike- this is a characteristic of a great and nobel human..i do not wish to sermonize anything..or give a lecture on moralism..but it is with some circumspection and introspection that i've come up with this conclusion..i will be oblidged if anybody who shares a different stage wishes to explore the medium of dialectics (the greek method of discussions over arguments..albeit theirs were political ones)..i think we all can benefit from this..